I am a moron

I am a moron

I can not believe what I did last night. My Charlie Brown piece is almost done. I needed to do Snoopy’s nose and then the back stitching for the grass and black around the characters… And of course after I placed my lap frame on the floor to get a drink I managed to knock my drink over as soon as I placed it on the stand next to my couch and it splashed ALL OVER the white aida. I sprayed it with stainer removed and washed it on delicate. It looks like it shrunk a bit, but it’s hard to tell I have to iron it out and put it back in the frame to finish off the final touches, but I am devastated. This was the piece before my idiocy occurred: I honest just want to die thinking about it. My husband saw the piece sitting out drying this morning and very nicely asked me, ooooph what happened? 🙁 On a happy note one of my packages arrived from 123stitch yesterday. My fabric for the Woodland Sampler arrived, as well as the threads! So, as soon as I get Charlie finished I’m going to start that. And then soon enough it will be time to start on the AAN Mystery Sampler (we get the patterns on the 10th of Feb!). I really hope my fabrics I ordered from Steph’s Fabby’s arrives by then. If not, oh well I still have some coming from Picture this Plus. We will have to see! Both of these projects will be my first on anything but aida, and I am SO...
Meh, day.

Meh, day.

I’m not having the best of days. I feel agitated and irritated by almost everything today. Not sure why. Perhaps it’s the change of weather. I can’t be tired, I slept long and well last night. I’m not under any particular amount of stress from work… Just one of them days I suppose. Worked on the project I mentioned for the new client for a bit yesterday. Came up with this: Worked on two of my projects last night. Snoopy/Charlie Brown and “Bless this Nest” and WIP/UFO I found when going through my stash. Bless this Net is a seriously complicated little kit. Lots of fractionals, color changes, and specialty stitches. I think it’s going to be gorgeous when finished though! So, on Snoopy – I finished his body and started Charlie’s head: And this just about where “Bless this Nest” was at when I started- well it only had 14 half cross stitches – I forgot to snap a pic before my needle hit the aida!: And my ending point for the night: Won’t be able to get into stitch mode until much later tonight. Worked all day, and still have several things left on my plate before I can officially “relax”....

Regrets

So, I was always one to claim I lived a life with “no regrets”. I was full of shit. And, at this point I’d call out anyone who said they didn’t regret at least one thing in their entire life. There are always regrets. Missed opportunities and bad choices being the top contenders. I have regrets, many of them. Some are small, some are very large. That being said – I don’t live with a heart full of regret and sadness. I don’t focus on my bad decisions every day. When an opportunity comes along that I cannot take because of a bad choice made in my younger years it hits me in the face full force once again. I move on, keep plugging along knowing I can’t change the past. I’ll probably make more mistakes in the future and accrue some more regrets but I will learn from them and hopefully grow wiser, more patient and become a better person in the...

Staying Sane Freelancing From Home

I’m not just a web developer, coding away my day, even though that’s technically what pays my bills. I’m also a full-time mom, chef, maid, laundress, private children’s entertainer, repair woman, nurse, chauffer and so much more. There were days when I didn’t have a minute to take a deep breath. I turned into a giant ball of stress and anxiety, driving my husband batshit crazy and causing myself even more stress making it impossible to relax. After a mild breakdown that involved tears, yelling and many grey hairs I have found a way to break out of the montony of code, vacuuming and changing diapers though that have seemed to calm my stress levels down… Time outs for ME.  Yes, those very things every parenting magazine, blog and newsletter recommend are what I have finally understood the importance of. And not just for child-rearing. For work. Working at home is hard. Really hard. It’s hard doing it on your own, but amplified even more so when you juggling two full time jobs at the same time. Working at home you often forget to take breaks because your work is always there, just one computer screen or [insert your own work at home tasks here] away. Sitting down to check your email can very likely roll into a two hour work session. Typically my day went something like this: 7am – Wake up! (Or, in my case – first alarm)  7:10am – alarm again 7:20am – alarm (ok, you get the idea. This happens until 7:40, when I jump out of bed and in a mad dash wake up my...